PROMOTED FROM D TO B

 I was promoted from D to B.

Yes D to B. It is not a grade but theoretically yes. After 3 years being the walking dead employee in the company. Some people saying that I just a redundant to the company, some people say what am I doing or what task assign to in the office. Talking about me huh? Only 1 finger goes to me but 4 fingers appointed to you. 

I promoted from Data Analyst to Business Analyst. My DA was not functioning as supposed but I did another task. 

Since August 2021, I was appointed as the project coordinator to a project, which is third project. I promised to myself to do better than previous projects. Out of sudden I was expected to be the subject matter expert (SME) for the project meanwhile I know nothing, not nothing but only 10%, only the introduction. I was managed a POC for this system but the development not completed as supposed since it is only POC maybe. From the POC, I already met the technical team. To be honest, I was not really confident managing the POC but now I am. 

Back to the story, the first week of the project is the introduction session which I already afraid of the project's journey haha. The second week we started the requirement collecting session, and was failed on the first day haha. Boss had to join us on the second day and forth. After the requirement session, I still need boss to come along for any meeting but there are some meetings that he is not coming and still cant handle the meeting, however the project manager able to lead the meeting. Those meeting was specifically regarding accounting and integration where I am zero at. Fuhh. 

There was 1 meeting that I was capable to lead with some help from boss which is registration part. When it comes to accounting part, I failed. Right after the meeting, boss asked me why I was not confident as the registration session? Boss, I failed accounting. 

To cut it short, I vigorously make effort to understand all the modules and items in the system until I am capable to re-do the SRS documents. I started to handle the meeting by myself after the mid of Nov 2021, I conduct the walkthrough of the test case for UAT preparation. Proud of me. Big clap!

Then, it started to less and not sleep, no weekend, no holiday, no off day to be exact. I grateful to have a team, a small team which giving full commitment to the project. Very grateful. 

But I feel wasting time because we spent months for something that not making us going anywhere we still at the UAT stage for months. Sometimes I thinking, what we were doing? We not achieving something in complete because we were interrupted with unnecessary testing session which also causing not well-managed project. I hope I could manage the project better on the next part and phase, better negotiation. 

I was cried many times lately due to stress with lots of work and timeline to chase. 

And there is 1 time I was with a user discuss on the requirements and process flow, I receive bunch of email on testing, I was stressed and cried. I text my boss saying that I cant afford to have all those testing straight in 3 days. And command for EOT come out hahahaha. Note for boss, I only will say something when I have to, when I am saying something, meaning that I had enough. 

All effort paid off with unlocking an achievement being promoted to another level. Alhamdulillah. 

There are lots of story to tell along the journey of this project. 

 

Knowledge Never Ending

Have been busy with working life, it is very tiring but I enjoy it while it can.

I have been improving my performance from last year. I try my best to execute my task to contribute my effort to the company that I have been 4 years employed. To be honest my contribution to RENTAP project was disappointed where I was not play my role, I did not execute my task as it supposed. 

But I realised I am capable to do more than I have done.

Until the time comes, I try and try until I never expect to be like now. I achieved the really busy and hectic life. I am satisfied. 

Slowly I am learning the system, how people develop a system, what is required to develop a system, how the arrangements, how it managed and whatnots.

Work is never ending until you dead. Even though you are not employed and you being a housewife, you still work and learn how to be a successful housewife, manage the house chores, manage the family, manage the finance and etc. 

I proud of myself. Really. I am capable to do a lot of things, yea I admit that the task not really executed as  expected, half cooked haha. Lots to improve. Seeking for help and advise from the senior. 

Currently learning the postpaid system, not whole which including the each of party involved such as network thingy I think. Specifically the system. It is interesting even though bulk, a lot and very challenging mentally and physically. Tired physical and mental. Sometimes burned out but need to motivate myself, work is not about yourself, it is about the team.

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I am waiting and looking for another challenges and knowledge that I could learn. 

FEELING LONELY

I rented a room since I started work at Shah Alam. More than 4 years already. The people in this house move in and out. Most of the tenant moved out because of they are getting married and finished their intership. 

I had 4 friends literally that I really can be friends. 

The first one was my colleague. Even though we rarely met due to the different working hour. She works under the support or operation department meanwhile I development department. The support team working hours is 24 hours and shift. We only met when we have a staff meeting each of 3 months or I come to Celcom for a meeting. When we are at home, sometimes we talk.

Second is my roommate. She is really nice person. Talkative. I shared lots of stories with her. But during she is my roommate, I rarely stay at Shah Alam almost a year. Until she getting married and I felt losing someone in my life. I lost a roommate. 

After that I received some new roommate but I don't really like them because of their behaviour. 

1. She touched my things and make a mess

2. She always lie down on my bed after got back from work. Dude, thats my bed.

3. She used/took my things without my permission. She broke my air freshener without telling sorry until I found out.

4. I don't really talk to this person, she love to lived in her world

Then, the third friend is also my roommate. Like sisters. We used to have dinner together, sometimes whenever I am free. We talked our things. We helped each other. Oh she is here because of internship. Until she finished her internship and I again feeling alone. 

That is why I don't really like to be really attached with someone, people come and go. We never know.

UNACCEPTABLE PERCEPTION

 I wonder sometimes, is it necessary to help people at the kitchen when you are meeting or visit your boyfriend's parents for the first time?

Does it?

I personally don't really like to having the guest to come to the kitchen to help us to prepare for drinks or food. Then, why should I. In fact that is your house and I am the guest for the first time, I need to wash the dishes? I need to prepare the drinks? I need to prepare the food? Hello! Then you la come to my house and I will prepare for all.

For me, the guest is the guest, except I came for the tens times and I already know all the people in the house, familiar with all the people. Just imagine, your brother bring his girlfriend for the first time and you want her to sapu sampah, or kemas rumah, suddenly wash the dishes where you are just finished your lunch with all the family. Tiber!

And is it wrong for me to not do those things?

I will do when I want to do it. Don't ask me that I need to do this and that. I know when the right time I need to action. I am not that rude when I finished eating and not wash the dishes myself. 

But whatever people to think, you want to say that I was rude? Go ahead.

Cikgu Nuar Kawen Weh!

Hai ... !!!

So here we again, i write and u read.

We went to Segamat, Johor for my roller coaster teacher's wedding. Just so u know that this is the first time me at JOHOR. Yes! Finally Johor.

Seriously, Im so excited, Im so happy for him.

He finally not bachelor anymore.

Madkan drive, and accompanied by my sister to Johor.

We were arrived at the event on 11.30 am, I think. Then we get some foods to eat. Thank god, there is Nasi Minyak, all i want is the kismis 😅. Me sooo like it. 

Sir, u made me gain some of lots of weight while waiting for u.

Wait! So there is no homestay la kan after this??? Hahaha

Picture the teachers. Cikgu Sham and Cikgu Fadzli. The others tak sempat. Huhu

Also, it has been so long Im not meet Cikgu Sham and his real name is Fadrusham, still remember bhai. He tried to contact me but unreachable. Sorry cikgu. He was my BM teacher. He is my bapak bapak kind of teacher. 

Cikgu fadzli selalu dah jumpa. I met him at SESTA, Sekolah Sains Tapah, where my brother same school with his daughter. Sometimes say hello and sometimes not. Haha. And I met him during the run event thingy.

Missing all of the moments in primary school.

Meanwhile the groom. Fakhrul Anwar. He is the one of the teacher that I really want to meet and so hard. Finally I did.

Whatever it is, be the best husband u can be, be the best son u can be, be the best teacher u can be. 

Yeah, good luck in your marriage!

bye

Tawakal November 2019

Moga Allah berkati rezeki yang dikurniakan kepada aku.
Moga Allah permudahkan urusan hidup aku.
Moga Allah limpahkan rezeki kepada aku.

Sekarang ini aku hanya mampu tawakal dan berserah kepada Allah untuk teruskan hidup dalam bulan November.

Duit gaji aku dah habis.

T.T

Harini adalah 8 November dan aku hanya mempunyai RM120 sahaja dan ada 16 hari lagi nak gaji.

TAK SABAR NAK PUASA

Lagi 2 minggu nak puasa dah. 6 Mei 2019.

Mula la teringat masa budak-budak dulu. 

Eeeee, tak sabarnya nak puasa!

Bila member tanya kenapa tak sabar puasa?

Tak sabar nak puasa sebab mak tak akan cepat marah. Kalau buat silap, mak tak marah. Hehehe

Tapi sekarang dah berubah. Bukan berubah sebab dah besar. Tapi keadaan yang berubah bila ma dah kawin lain.

Aku tak salahkan ma, itu hak dia. Dia berhak mencari kebahagiaan dia dan peneman hidup dia.

Ni kali kedua puasa yang rasa kosong. Orang lain ada rasa berbuka dengan keluarga. Aku?

Ya, memang boleh nak berbuka dengan ma, tapi tak sama sebab aku kena datang sebagai tetamu bukan ahli rumah itu.

Bila dipikirkan, boleh mendatangkan kemurungan. Huhu

EXHAUSTED FOR NOTHING

We have been in this project more than 6 months. We have developed the system since August. We follow the purposed design from August to October. But then when we at Bintulu, the design changed to something new and we have no idea what actually they want.

They have been focused on cosmetic part until the dateline is coming the push us for the functionality part.

We work day and night. We will go home early as 7pm or 9pm. No weekend. What else?

We exhausted!

We need free holiday as we don't need to open our notebook and phone to answer this project's questions while we are on holiday or weekend.

I went for family day but I spent my time with notebook phone in the room and answer questionszz do this do that til midnight just to clean the shits mess that those people had done. This is so fucking damn!

MOGSEC 2018

After a long time no see... here I am

I have been busy for these 2 months back. I was asked to be a coordinator for one project since there is no one would do side thingy for boss and the two girls.

At first, I was feeling like I am not good enough to be a project coordinator. But I have no bulk work to be done at office though, so why not.

Being in this project which we are collaborating with another company and being as the vendor of a big company to provide something to the bigger company. I have met with various levels of position and realised how small I am and my company even my boss.

Technologies has been developed widely in order to provide something that we would never know it would exist. Develop a system for tracking, security and safety. The technology of the devices that would come out from such a small device which cost almost a thousand ringgit each. How drastically the changes of the technology, we should and we have to get to know because this kind of thing can make such a huge income to the organisation.

Also, being in various fields of knowledge make ourself more powerful with one thing that not all of people have the opportunity to have it. It is EXPERIENCE. Yes, being a project coordinator for the first time, I know how the technologies run, the hardware work, the importance of communication and most important is to jot down every single thing that came out from the mouth to be as the proof and the reminder.

And we have to work for an event. Working at last minute just a few days before the event. We work with the least of knowledge. But, we have done it just 1 day before the event. MOGSEC 2018, this event full of companies which dealing with oil & gas except us maybe. We are not in oil & gas, we are zero in oil & gas, we are nothing.

I was one of exhibitor for our project. Presented the project to sell to other company who will interested in our technology. It was priceless experience, met to many people, speak confidently, dress up smartly and stand toughly. Some companies interested on our project. It is a good for company's income.

Done. No the end sentence.

Statistics Thought #1

In statistics, we doing lots of analysis, lots of calculation and such. But, do we jump into the conclusion with only based on the result of those analysis without really do some of investigations?

It's wrong. I did watch and read on some stories and they say:

"Do not jump into the conclusion without exactly understand what's happening the other side (object) situation"

Yeah, I do and did agree with that. It will come out with how much of time do you spend on study, task, reading and everything. To be emphasized here is all people or human has different situation and ability towards the thing that they are doing.

I can't say that the data will resulting a wrong conclusion since we have the confidence percentage to agree with the result. This thing could be bias on the analysis hahaha. 

To be a data scientist with such a big amount of salary do not just simply 100% put your belief on the result but you need to do investigation.