What Men Think

September 26, 9:15 am

Me and some girl friends had some talk with a man who just considering he broke up with his girlfriend.

We thought he had a girlfriend which actually he only had a girl friend.

Disclaimer, we just cannot simply conclude from just one man's opinion.

Okay, the story is my friend knew this girl and being friend with her for many years already and already had some lepaking or maybe can be a dating. 

And out of nowhere, she posting that she already engaged with somebody else. And my friend got frustrated with that act. 

We sympathised with what happened. But after we listened to the real story, we 200%. disagreed with him which saying that girl choosing someone better to be with and left him. Which could be saying she is cheated on him. 

He did not confessed to that girl that he likes her, he want her to be his girlfriend. Obviously that girl cannot go further with him. 

Maybe that girl just assuming my friend as a friend. Meanwhile, opposite for my friend. He assuming that the girl understand that he has feeling towards her by without confessed anything. He assuming by go out for lepak or dating could be considered as a couple. 

He stated that when he confessed that he liked her, he needs to take care of her, he needs to be responsible of her which he should not be because they are not married yet. He can act like that but not compulsory if he could not afford.

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We both men and women need to know that we both cannot telepath. We are not the x-men, we are not the Prof Charles Xavier. We are just human. If there is something that really need to be tell, just tell it out. We cannot assuming. Something precious need to be chased. At least you do the move.

ISTERI KENA BERHENTI KERJA DUDUK KAMPUNG

30 November 2021, 8.56 am

Merujuk kepada tajuk, dah tentulah kena dalam bahasa melayu. Aku kadang keliru, sebab aku tak bagus pun dalam kedua dua bahasa. Bahasa melayu teruk bahasa inggeris lagi la teruk.

Okay.

Perempuan sekarang ramai yang dah belajar tinggi ada sijil diploma, ijazah, master. Lepas habis belajar, cari kerja. Kerja yang bagus. Gaji yang bagus. 

Tujuan untuk bekerjaya sangatlah pelbagai atau pun subjektif. Ada yang nak dapatkan pendapatan untuk sara hidup. Ada yang nak dapatkan pendapatan untuk berbelanja lebih nak beli itu ini untuk kepuasan diri. Ada yang berkeinginan untuk tolong ahli keluarga yang mana keluarganya susah. Ada yang juga yang berkeinginan untuk bantu suami, bukan jugak sebab gaji si suami tu tak mencukupi tapi untuk kita beli barang guna duit sendiri tanpa ada rasa bersalah untuk berbelanja lebih dengan menggunakan duit si suami. Aku rasa yang ni ramai yang buat.

Namun demikian, ramai manusia yang mentaliti dia si isteri kena ikut si suami. Ya, untuk ikut suami ada alasan juga. Adakah si suami dihantar untuk bertugas ke daerah atau negeri lain? Adakah si suami kena menjaga keluarganya di kampung? Tapi untuk balik kampung dan tiada sebab yang munasabah, rasanya tak perlu kot.

Dengan tidak mengikuti kehendak suami untuk balik ke kampung dan menetap di sana bukan alasan untuk si suami berkahwin lagi satu. Aku cukup membangkang kalau ada orang yang menghakimi sampai macam tu. 

Aku rasa ramai je lagi manusia yang berfikiran perempuan kena ikut suami kemana sahaja.

IRRESPONSIBLE

I am in a problem where I need to think how to handle my car.

I bought a car and let someone use it but not properly taken care. I got my car back but not in a good condition:

No road tax for 2 years

Crack on the front mirror

Not properly serviced

Now I have to do since the person not being responsible to take car of my car.

The worst is I have to put my money to fix all the shit that he has done. With the debt that not being paid as of now. 

BIG CLAP BRO. DAMN YOU.

Miserable Mood

17 January 2022, 17:04:58

The feeling for today is not really good. 

I am not in the period mood which I am not supposed in the not in the mood.

But the environment made me miserable. Miserable I  think.

Basically I  just the feeling. I can't focused on my work. I can't think straightly.

Hahaha

What happened to me?

PERFECTIONISM

Do you think that you are perfect to all people?

Sometimes even though you thought that you are already be a kind person that you think people would feel, there is must be something that could hurt people. 

Sometimes, I could be thinking that I have made a wrong decision to be with someone that you not really know their personality. Yes, I would feel comfortable but the limit still there. 

The hardest is when, you can do whatever you want to do towards yourself or other people but the other people can't do as what you have done.  

Why you need to criticise whatever people are doing? Meanwhile you can do whatever fucking you wanna do.

YOU REJECT AND YOU APPROVE

I don't really understand for those people who likes to reject other people ideas but ended up using the rejected idea to obtain the approval.

It was not once but more and different people. 

It is disgusting!

#2 What I Want

September 12, 2021 11:14 am

I am at the office right now. As usual, we do have weekend but the abnormal weekend where we need to work. I need a full weekend where I do not need to think about work. It started when the things that we doing right now became the thing that we don't like anymore. Not a passion anymore. Boring. Yeah, it's boring. 

I hate writing because it makes me to think the things that I shouldn't. However, I do writing whenever I feel to tell everything what I feel at that time but I hate the feeling.

Sometimes I realized I am a person who not easy to not to think of something. Overthinking. I struggle to not do so. I tried to make myself busy with something else but sometimes it's failed.

Back to the purpose of this entry.

I want a partner who wants to make an empire together. Who can support me. Who can be there anytime I need him. Who can always lend his ears to listen all my stories. 

A partner who I can be myself. Why should I being fake for someone that I wanted to spend my life with? Will I be happy by being fake? No. Absolutely no. 

Being fake is just to make people happy not me. 

The hardest in life is to find someone who can be real.

EASY COME EASY GO

In a relationship, we sometime easily fall into a strange feeling where we hardly to not to think about that person. Hardly to not to get in touch with that person.

The person that make we smile all day

The person that fill in the blank of our time where that space used to be blank or lonely

The person that making you wanna be better person day by day

Until the feeling is not the same from the other person

You will feel miserable

You will feel demotivated

You will feel the lone that you already left 

Why do we need to facing this kind of feeling?

It is normal, but it is abnormal when we easily fell because easy come easy go

Bear in mind

This is bullshit. Yes

What you have to do is try slowly ignore the person that dump you

COVID 19

It has been a while not posting any on my page.

Today is 09072021

The new case of virus infected is 9k.

What do we expect for now? I am grateful for what I had and currently have. I still have a job. I still working. Some people out there losing their job, jobless. Some are single and some are married with children to feed. 

The situation is worsening. The case not even decrease even though people working from home (some). The jobless need to survive. People struggle to find money and food to pay the needs. White flag is raised. 

Seeing and read the struggle, the hard, the tough days of people to survive is pitiful, making me cry. I afford to have food while some people not even had their first drink in the day.

Sad

I don't really understand when the intelligent people denied the source of the number of cases, still ignore, still let the source of the number of cases causing more and more. Why?

Please do something.

Even people who working from home need to go outside. Staying home also not good. The stress of working almost exploded.

People need to go outside to get some fresh air. Need their life back. 

Yaa, it is not all the fault pointed to that party but as the responsible party they need to do something to contain and make better.

ITS GETTING WORSE

05/06/2021, 02:55:43 AM

Writing in the middle of the night. Crying and crying. I don't know what is happening to myself. I didn't get hurt. I am supposed okay right now. I tried to be okay. I am trying to not making people annoyed with me. 

I need someone. I cant stay alone. I cant stay quiet. I cant stop to texting people. But I know its going to make people annoyed with me. Not all people like to being disturbed.

Whenever I am thinking to not making people annoyed and I have to stand by myself, I cried. I dont know why. 

I am sorry to being so childish and dependent. 

Am I getting worse?