MENTAL HEALTH

My mental health at the moment is not really in a good state. 

Easily to cry and lots of crying scene in a week

Easily to feel down

Easily to feel alone

Easily to give up

Tend to do nothing even though I have lots of work

I am not the past few months person

Lazy and very lazy

I even feel sad with myself

I feel like my laugh is a fake. I will suddenly stop laughing when I say its fake because I try to laugh to something that not really a joke. I don't know why I cut my laugh.

GAMBLING

When u chose someone it doesn’t mean that u found the right one. 

Life is gambling. 

We never know what would comes and happens in future. 

We will never be able to expect on someone. 

Regardless up or downgrading the life doesn’t mean u are better than someone else’s. 

It is good if u are better and rizq for ur partner.

But whenever and wherever ur, never ever downgrading people.

LET IT GO

Sometimes it comes when the time is not right. 

Sometimes it does not meant for u. 

It’s hard and hurting. 

Everybody knows. 

If it belongs to u it will stay. 

Being friends wasn’t a good choice. 

Yes, eventually it would be depending on the circumstances. 

If it’s not, we have to let it go.

Goodbye.

DECISION

Hi.

Decision is the only thing that we need to do for every second in our life. We have to decide what we want to do next. Do we need to this or that? Is it necessary? Even, we have to decide what we want to eat? Where we want to eat? When we going to sleep? 

Decision is the hardest thing to be made. 

Sometimes, decision that we made is only valid to the particular time. We can't expect what will come from anything.

We can only expect things from ourself.

Yes. 

Decision to continue alive

Decision to eat

Decision to shower

Decision to do work

Decision to sleep

Decision to get in love

Decision to leave

Decision to let go

Everything. And I choose to let it go.